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Goal setting.
I've realized that I really need to make an effort for my work so that I can truly get a sense of satisfaction when I do stuff. I keep on falling behind and I understand why, but I never seem to put in the energy to make things worth it. If something is not worth it then there is no point in doing it, but if you put in the effort you can make something worth it. I want to start making things worth it. I want to get things done so I can truly admire my final project instead of just looking at it and forgetting it. Maybe that is why I like music so much. When I perfect a song I can perform for others, I can play it for myself, and it will be incredible. I like music because I truly get a sense of accomplishment when creating something to remember.
I have lots of work due, but I'm finally passing all my classes. I should have nothing less than an 80, but it seems that won't be happening anytime soon. Right now I need to be focused on keeping my grades above a 70 and not giving up on assignments just because they are hard. I hate talking to teachers and I have terrible memory, so I always accidentally end up forgetting to get help. I hate having to do things on my own, but unless I do something this is how it will always be.
My room is a mess and I'm just waiting for the school year to end. I will be starting fresh. New school with New people yk. I hope I don't mess it up like this year.
It is exam season so I'm kinda freaking out! I just finished taking 3/4 standardized tests for the end of the year and finals haven't even started! There are also 3 different auditions I'm going crazy over. 2 of them are for orchestra and the other one is for the band. I think I will do relatively good in orchestra, but I'm freaking out over the band ones. We got our music a day ago but the audition is on May 6th!! I would practice over the weekend, but I'm booked with girl scouts all weekend and the weekend after that D: I have really got to empty my schedule otherwise I'm gonna overwork myself to exhaustion.
I have been listening to this YouTube channel recently because she is unrestricted on my school device and has a good variety of music that I listen to. The channel is called "mai" and right now I'm listening to their "Today is the Day" playlist. Not sure how they find all the music, but it is perfect to zone out too when doing work or just thinking. One of my fav playlist they made is "GIx4PblHScpfcy9NXEa2cZ8heYfnnauUAwV/8Ro60+DQSJoCew41hVcsEgu43LYM" even though it is just keyboard spam the music is actually great! It is a playlist of only fast tempo jazz. I never really listened to jazz, but after being around my school's jazz band so often I have grown rather fond of it :)
I can't wait for summer.
I have lots of work due, but I'm finally passing all my classes. I should have nothing less than an 80, but it seems that won't be happening anytime soon. Right now I need to be focused on keeping my grades above a 70 and not giving up on assignments just because they are hard. I hate talking to teachers and I have terrible memory, so I always accidentally end up forgetting to get help. I hate having to do things on my own, but unless I do something this is how it will always be.
My room is a mess and I'm just waiting for the school year to end. I will be starting fresh. New school with New people yk. I hope I don't mess it up like this year.
It is exam season so I'm kinda freaking out! I just finished taking 3/4 standardized tests for the end of the year and finals haven't even started! There are also 3 different auditions I'm going crazy over. 2 of them are for orchestra and the other one is for the band. I think I will do relatively good in orchestra, but I'm freaking out over the band ones. We got our music a day ago but the audition is on May 6th!! I would practice over the weekend, but I'm booked with girl scouts all weekend and the weekend after that D: I have really got to empty my schedule otherwise I'm gonna overwork myself to exhaustion.
I have been listening to this YouTube channel recently because she is unrestricted on my school device and has a good variety of music that I listen to. The channel is called "mai" and right now I'm listening to their "Today is the Day" playlist. Not sure how they find all the music, but it is perfect to zone out too when doing work or just thinking. One of my fav playlist they made is "GIx4PblHScpfcy9NXEa2cZ8heYfnnauUAwV/8Ro60+DQSJoCew41hVcsEgu43LYM" even though it is just keyboard spam the music is actually great! It is a playlist of only fast tempo jazz. I never really listened to jazz, but after being around my school's jazz band so often I have grown rather fond of it :)
I can't wait for summer.